Everyone has dreams when they are young. And mine came to an abrupt halt.
I changed as a man, as a person, my soul was damaged beyond repair. So I turned into someone everyone would hate. Because I hate everyone and everything. I’m furious at the world. I don’t see that changing anytime soon. But then it does change. And if there is one thing I am not good at, it’s adapting.
Hope, Bullseye’s daughter, jump starts my soul again. I hate it. I love it. I need her. But I can’t have her. She’s my friend’s daughter, for one. For two, she’s way too damn young for the likes of me. Three? She’s got a kid. And everyone knows how I feel about kids.
Vermin. Loud. Annoying. Wonderful. Beautiful. Precious. The voice inside my head is stupid. It wants and wants but I won’t allow myself to have it. I don’t deserve to have it. There’s no hope for me. Even if hope is staring me in the face. I have to focus on me. My business. I’m on a case. Women are dying. And it’s all because of me. I have to protect what I care about for once in my life. I failed once and I refuse to do it again.
How can I love her, when hate is all I’ve ever known?
Everyone has dreams when they are young. And mine came to an abrupt halt.
I changed as a man, as a person, my soul was damaged beyond repair. So I turned into someone everyone would hate. Because I hate everyone and everything. I’m furious at the world. I don’t see that changing anytime soon. But then it does change. And if there is one thing I am not good at, it’s adapting.
Hope, Bullseye’s daughter, jump starts my soul again. I hate it. I love it. I need her. But I can’t have her. She’s my friend’s daughter, for one. For two, she’s way too damn young for the likes of me. Three? She’s got a kid. And everyone knows how I feel about kids.
Vermin. Loud. Annoying. Wonderful. Beautiful. Precious. The voice inside my head is stupid. It wants and wants but I won’t allow myself to have it. I don’t deserve to have it. There’s no hope for me. Even if hope is staring me in the face. I have to focus on me. My business. I’m on a case. Women are dying. And it’s all because of me. I have to protect what I care about for once in my life. I failed once and I refuse to do it again.
How can I love her, when hate is all I’ve ever known?